9 weeks!!!

According to the book I've been reading as of today the baby is supposed to be as big as a head of lettuce, about 18 in and 3.2lbs. I found out this week that unless something goes wrong I won't get another ultrasound. I am super bummed. Not because the baby is healthy and doing well, really well, she is a mover and I think she's awake more then she is asleep. She is also super sensitive about people being in "her" space and will kick if she feels someone else near my belly. I just love having an ultrasound when the baby actually looks like a baby. With Daniel for the last month I had to have stress tests twice a week and so I got to see him a lot. I'm super sad that I won't get to see her again until she comes out. I'm not good with surprises and I just want to see her and 9 weeks seems like FOR-EVER!!! Daniel is being super cute about his baby sister. Sometimes he'll sit on my lap and tell her a story or sing her a song. The cutest is when he kisses my belly and tells her that he loves her. I'm hoping he still loves her as much when she is actually here.

This pregnancy has been a new experience for me and I feel like I've been ungrateful and super grumpy and as it comes to an end I'm sad that I haven't been my grateful for the blessing that is growing inside of me. I'm sad that David and Daniel have had to put up with a grumpy wife/mom. I can't go back (and I wouldn't) but I can change my attitude now and try to be a better more grateful mom and that is my goal for the last 9 weeks, to enjoy this blessing of being pregnant and to really look at it as a blessing.